Working Witch

I finally found a JOB! After a long, exhausting search, seeming hopeless at many points, I will be starting with a luxury real estate firm next week. I was feeling like I would have taken anything. Counter intuitively, that actually made it worse. What I needed was a shot of confidence. To stop thinking of myself as a desperate victim, decide I deserved it, to figure out what I could offer them that no one else could and sell it! I'm young, trend-savvy and at times too plugged in...and that turned out to be just what I have to give to an entrepreneurial, progressive employer.

It took a lot of spellcasting. I had gotten in touch with Stacey Demarco (of Witch in the Boardroom fame) on a friendly level, and tore through her book. In there I found a couple spells that really did the trick. (I would post them, however, they're not mine to reprint.) What she also wrote about, though, were the ancient laws that bring us prosperity ("like attracting like," for instance: being what you want to become until you become it. Fake it until you make it.) She also wrote about sending your intention out and then participating. Stopping thinking that magic is going to come from outside of you, and starting to tap into the magic inside of you and making magic happen. In reality, it's fantastic advice for anyone, witch or not!

With all the excitement though, this new job has it's downside. It's temporary "trial" employment to begin with. At first this made me nervous. I wonder if I can cut it, especially since I've done similar marketing but never in this field...but at the same time, I feel that same confidence swell in me again. I know I will try my hardest to succeed at this, I know I am capable if I don't relent at puting my nose to the grindstone.

I went out and celebrated with my girlfriends, Angelia and Gisele. We went to one of our favorite pubs where a favorite band of mine plays. It's just an 80s cover band, but the nostalgia is always a fun time. I was enjoying myself watching the band when the man in front of me asked if I wanted to dance. I noticed that although no one was out there, once we went, several other men and women alike joined us. One girl near me was grooving in her chair, even though she was surrounded by friends, a little nod to her and she jumped up as well. I got her dancing with my gentleman friend and had to leave them there with eachother. Angelia and Gis never danced, but I knew they were having fun.

Angelia sent me a note the next day. I guess a fellow had come up to her and Gis to ask where I was. Why he didn't say anything for the few hours I was there, I don't know. (Gisele is weather hardened - and I mean that metaphorically - with a smokey voice and a huge chip on her shoulder about men. Still, Angie said she really tried to work this guy, leaving her standing there ignored.) I wondered how many people are standing pitched at the edge, toes on the line, ready to jump but never do. It's not a shot of courage they need so much as a shot of confidence. You need to believe in yourself when no one else does, and if you don't, then fake it til you make it. Other people aren't concerned with you. They just aren't. You need to drive yourself, decide if you're either going to matter to people or forget about them. Here's hoping you can be the one they wonder about when you're gone!